Dark Secrets Of The Heart

This book encapsulates my tortuous journey through two failed marriages and hugely damaging, acrimonious divorces. To give some context of before and after, I have written the first and last chapters indicating my state of mind about my relationships. In between are several chapters chronicling the various stages I went through as my marriage and my very life fell apart, all for no reason other than some female mid-life crisis. It was absolute hell to go through once, never mind twice. Yet somehow, I managed to pull through, though it was a close call. During the first breakdown, I was so deeply affected by the appalling treatment that I was subjected to that I suffered a severe bout of depression and came pretty close to taking my own life. What was remarkable about that was that I was, toxically and narcissistically, being intentionally sent into depression with the hope that I would commit suicide. At one point I overheard a conversation between my ex-wife which sounded uncomfortably like she was quite prepared to take matters into her own hands and kill me. After I left, for my sanity more than anything else, my first ex- then set about poisoning my second ex-wife’s mind with malicious lies and false accusations about me. In the fullness of time, that malicious, vindictive gossip bore fruit as my second ex-wife set about trying to see me off. I make no apologies for what you are about to read sounding like a horror story since that is exactly what it was. I have not used the slightest exaggeration as the drama was so naturally exaggerated there was no need for me to gild the lily. Apart from recounting the awful mistreatment I was subject to over a very prolonged period, I have tried to take from the experience whatever I could in terms of all of the learning about human behaviour in these types of situations. Of course, all of that came at great cost, between a quarter and a half a million pounds or euros. This included the loss of assets and property, potential earnings and legal costs. I have to say, it was worth every single penny. However, the biggest loss was due to what is called Parental Alienation. I have four children from whom I am permanently estranged and I do not see that ever becoming something that I can recover. They don’t want it and neither do I. Yes, it is a sadness, but that is something I have had to learn to live with. I sincerely hope that anybody who cares to read this tale of woe can learn something from my experience, even if it is only how to understand certain types of human behaviour as well as how to get over it and forge a new life for yourself. It has not been easy to overcome what was done to me, but it was possible. To see how far I have come I highly recommend a lighter read with my other book, ‘Living With Love,’ where I regale the reader with a more positive view of how I was able to turn my life around. I do know that in what I have been through, I was not, and am not, alone. Over the years I have seen that my story is sadly all too common. Men and women alike, have found themselves on the receiving end of venomously toxic, narcissistic behaviour. And I have learned that the only thing you can do is get away from it as fast and as far as you possibly can. After that, you need time to heal and eventually to rebuild your life a much better person for the experience. Good luck. —- ISBN: 9798320416694